The One Dedicated to the Princess

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find that you and I collide...

-- Howie Day - Collide

Your skin and bones turn into something beautiful
And you know, for you I'd bleed myself dry
For you I'd bleed myself dry...

-- Petra Haden and Bill Frisell - Yellow

And if you'd 'a took to me like
A gull takes to the wind
Well, I'd 'a jumped from my tree
And I'd 'a danced like the king of the eyesores
And the rest of our lives would 'a fared well...

-- The Shins - New Slang

And I do believe it's true
That there are roads left in both of our shoes
And if the silence takes you
Then I hope it takes me too

So brown eyes, I'll hold you near
'Cause you're the only song I want to hear
A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere

Where soul meets body...

-- Death Cab for Cutie - Soul Meets Body

And I tried to choke my stare
At the perfection that others would kill for...

...finally, there is clarity: this tiny life is making sense...

-- Death Cab for Cutie - Debate Exposes Doubt

I'll be the waterwings that save if you start drowning
in an open tab, when your judgement's on the brink
I'll be your winter coat, buttoned and zipped straight to the
throat with the collar up, so you won't catch a cold

I want to take you far from the cynics in this town
And kiss you on the mouth
We'll cut our bodies from the tethers of this scene
Start a brand new colony...

-- The Postal Service - Brand New Colony

You're staring at my soul
My sanity you stole
But then I knew all along
That anything could go wrong

Though I can't see you
I can feel you
I'm so glad you opened my door
And when I get near
All my fears disappear
And I won't be alone anymore...

-- The Eraserheads - Fill Her

I wanted life to be this way
Just a little bit of love could mean so much
Oh please, don't take it all away
But with you, heaven is still close enough to touch
'Cause your love is still the only thing
That matters in this world
The only thing I can believe...

-- The Eraserheads - Hard to Believe

If you weren't real, I would make you up now...

...you're the honey and the moon that lights up my night...

-- Joseph Arthur - Honey and the Moon

I am smiling, I think of you
Where your gardens have no walls
Breathe in the air, if you care, you compare
Don't say farewell

Nothing can compare to when you roll the dice
And swear your love's for me...

-- Finlay Quaye - Dice

Come up to meet you
Tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart...

...nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh, take me back to the start...

-- Coldplay - The Scientist

Where are you? And I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always...

...don't waste your time on me
You're already the voice inside my head

I miss you...

-- blink-182 - I Miss You

Well you never would've found in the end
How amazing it feels just to live again
It's a feeling that you cannot miss
And it burns a hole through everyone that feels it
Well you're never gonna find it
If you're looking for it
Won't come your way...

...should've done something but I've done it enough
By the way, your hands were shaking
I'd rather waste my time with you
Should've said something but I've said it enough
By the way, my words were faded
I'd rather waste my time with you...

-- The Used - Blue and Yellow

Silent words from
My heart to you
My empty filled
Filled up with you

I slip another smile into your pocket
My heart is racing to you like a rocket...

-- Yellowcard - Rocket

Lately I've lost my tongue
Today you found my song
Unknown our love has grown
I thank God you came along

You are the one I've been waiting for, today
And here comes the sun, it's been baiting 'morn today

You looked right through me, there was no one else
Sat beside you and became myself...

-- Joshua Radin - Today

It hasn't felt like this before
It hasn't felt like home, for you
I know it's easy to say
But it's harder to feel this way
I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you...

-- Joshua Radin - The Fear You Won't Fall

Dreams are for those who sleep
Life is for us to keep
And if I chose the one I'd like to help me through
I'd like to make it with you

I really think that we can make it...

-- Bread - Make it With You

To lead a better life
I need my love to be here

Here, making each day of the year
Changing my life with a wave of her hand
Nobody can deny that there's something there...

...I want her everywhere
And if she's beside me, I know I need never care
But to love her is to need her everywhere...

-- The Beatles - Here, There and Everywhere

And when at last I find you
Your song will fill the air
Sing it loud so I can hear you
Make it easy to be near you
For the things you do endear you to me...

-- The Beatles - I Will

There's someone out there for me
I know she's waiting so patiently
Can you tell me her name?

...where is she? Where is she?
Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she?
Who's gonna complete my world?

-- Natalie & Justin Roman - Where Are You?

Come and sit with me
Don't be so quick to leave
I really like you girl
Let's trade thoughts and words
Explore the universe
Just don't leave me girl

I really like you girl
From the moment we met...

-- Pharrell - I Really Like You Girl


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Dear Almighty Gorgeous and Amazing Princess/Queen/Dictatress,

Happy birthday! Here are the reasons why each specific song is in the playlist - the lines that remind me of you. This is the actual order the playlist's supposed to be in, by the way.

Anywho, I was debating whether or not to go through with this, but I decided to just go for it anyways, for two reasons. One, you deserve at least SOMETHING from me for your birthday; and two, well, you're awesome and I adore you.

This entry and the playlist are yours and yours alone; here's hoping you like them. Anyways, happy birthday, again. Take care and God bless!

- your faithful slave, the Golden Boy..

P.S. With Brand New Colony, I was seriously tempted to put the lyrics to the whole song in, because it's seriously awesome. I settled for those, but I recommend it as a separate download. It pretty much says everything I want to say.

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The One About the Shoes and the Album

Okay, so today was a pretty good day, right? Copped new shoes, a new album, and got to bum around with Karlo for the first time in a while, which was cool.

The auspiciousness started out last night, when I found out that I didn't have a Physics lab today, which meant I didn't have to do any Physics work that night. Sweet. So I chillaxed for a bit, and got some work done on my essay, which I'm slowly chipping away at. Here's hoping to me finishing it by 4AM this morning.

Anywho, concocted my walk-around-the-City plan to take advantage of my early finish. In light of my gambling victory over the father, the mother gave me permission to look around for a new pair of kicks. Awesome.

Anyways, rocked up to Physics in the morning, and fuck it's boring. I seriously can't stay awake in it. I don't know if it's just because of the early morning lectures, but remaining focused is a bitch and a half. Right afterwards was my Psych experiment, which was fun. I got to watch a clip from Bruce Almighty (the part where Bruce makes Evan stuff up over and over again...I lika...do...da cha cha.) as part of the experiment, and got $20 at the end of it as well. Seeing as labs were off, I was finished by 12:45PM, so I had a lot of extra time on my hands. Perfect for a long-winded walk around the CBD.

Inauspicious start; bus ended up skipping the stop closest to Espionage, meaning I had to walk for an extra 5-10 minutes up Oxford St. Worth it though, seeing as I found sick shit at both Espionage and Footage. Highlights:

• Jordan Dunks at Espionage
• Team Editions at 99 Degrees
• BAPE jacket at Espionage (same pattern as in pic, but as a hoodie; sigh..$600..then again, I told Ma it can just be my Christmas present )
• New shirts at Footage and Espionage
• Black and Purple SBs, but nothing in my size

After that, walked all the way down to George St. to look for shoes around World Tower. Nothing at Hype, but SP3 had the Barcelonas. Sadly, no size. I was considering the Grey and Purple Team Editions at the other store as well, but decided against it. As such, it was off to Nitrogen. Now, I didn't really have high hopes about this store, but they'd been getting better shit in recent weeks. Couldn't find a good pair of SBs, but I did find the Ice Cream Board Flips. Fonz copped the pink/red pair, which were cool, but not as hot fire as the blue colourway. I tried the 8.5s on, and loved em, and was thisclose to copping them (as in, they were boxed, ready to be paid for), when I turned around and saw these beasts. Yeah, baby. As such, I went home with a new pair of Air Jordan IVs. I would've copped the Grape AJVs instead, but no size for those either. Sigh. Ahh well.

New shoes found, it was off to JB HiFi to look for DVDs. Wildboyz seasons 1 and 2 were still close to $30 each, so I skimped on those. Just before I walked out, I turned around and looked for Lupe's album, which I'd been scouring record shops for for the last week or so. Again, low expectations. Luckily, it was actually there. Sweet. Probably the sickest album cover I've seen in a while, as well.

Anywho, after all that, I made my way home. Just as I got to my stop, I gave Karl a buzz and suggested an impromptu hangout at his house, and he obliged. Pretty cool, seeing as I hadn't been to his house in about four months or so. Afterwards, he drove me home. I uploaded Food and Liquor, re-laced my new kicks (as always) and went to sleep. It's almost 2AM now; perfect essay-writing time. I'm seriously at my best around this time of the day. I don't know why, but it works for me, so I guess I've got a date with Microsoft Word. Anyways, later days!

- marty..

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The One with the Distraction Induction

Okay, so it's 4:20AM, right? I just sent my messy-as-can-be debate presentation to my Life Science debate manager, in the hopes that out of the Martshit I pulled out of my rectal cavity (seeing as it's from my ass, it's not bullshit, it's Martshit ), she can form some sort of coherent argument. Sigh, Life Science. Wait, not sigh. Fuck you.

Earlier today, I also finished off my Psych research report. Weird: even though this report was about 500 words longer than the half-research report from last semester, I actually felt more comfortable with it, and working on it was less of a bitch than I expected.

In other news, seeing as it's early morning already, it's officially the last day of my Mid-Session recess. There are two things wrong with the phrase "Mid-Session Recess." One, the break came after Week 10 of a 14 Week semester. Two, the word 'recess' implies a break from doing uni work; instead, I was stuck with a Psych report, a debate presentation for Life Science, and a 2000 word History essay.

Oh, hooray! Wow, UNSW! You're making TOO MUCH sense! Tone the sense-making down a bit, please! (That sound you heard was your sarcasm detector shattering into pieces.)

Anywho, seeing as there's still one day left, I think I actually did pretty well in the working department. The Psych Report and research for the debate are taken care of; all that's left is the History essay. Two thousand words, 40%. Damnit, there's no gulp emoticon. But hey, I handled last semester's essay well enough to be thisclose to a High Distinction, right? So here's hoping I can at least pass this one. I don't need the distinction, all I'm aiming for is that 50. Anything beyond that is a blessing.

Come to think of it, this week or so has actually been pretty eventful. I got to go clubbing, for the first time in about five weeks or so, for Fonz's 22nd; I got to watch Nacho Libre and Talladega Nights on the 21st and the 26th, respectively; people got to hang out at my house last Monday, which was awesome 'cause we had everything to ourselves for most of the day; I got a new ball for the backyard, meaning I can actually play backyard basketball again; I got to see the rest of the family for a random gathering at Tita Rose's last Friday night, so I'm pretty happy about that ; and finally, I got a fair bit of driving done throughout the week. Me being me, I balanced all this out with copious amounts of procrastination and voluntary distraction.

Speaking of distraction, the title's thanks to my Psych report, which showed that inducing rumination in people leads to higher levels of depression and anxiety, whilst distraction has the opposite effect. (Psych nerd in the hizzouse! OH, pass express!) In saying this, the shoes above are my distraction induction; I feel better focusing on them rather than on my work. (Thanks, Hypebeast and Niketalk!) Fingers crossed, I'm looking to cop the two Dunks soon. The Bapesta's a longshot, though.

Come to think of it, the only thing missing from this week may have been a spending spree. This might be in order sometime soon. I need new jeans seeing as I tend to make holes and tears in my current pairs (thank you, drunken stupor and uneven surfaces), Fonz is going to New York soon (and seeing as my brother tends to spoil me, I'm looking forward to my ride on the pasalubong express ) and, because I won a bet with my dad, he now owes me shoes. As all great gambling victories go, I won without having a lick of knowledge about what we were betting on: the NRL grand final. Thanks, Brisbane! The moral of the story is that shoes are good. Well, it's not actually a moral. Shoes are just good.

It's almost 5:20AM (fuck, that took me close to an hour?!), so I best be getting some shuteye. Anyways, later days!

- marty..

P.S. A crown? Fit for a princess/queen/dictatress. Wherever she might be.

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