Drip/Square/Geek/...Anorak?

From almighty Wikipedia:

"Nerd (pronounced /ˈnɜrd/) is a term often bearing a derogatory connotation or stereotype, that refers to a person who passionately pursues intellectual activities, esoteric knowledge, or other obscure interests rather than engaging in more social or popular activities. Therefore, a nerd is often excluded from physical activity and considered a loner by peers or will tend to associate with like-minded people."

Things that remind me that I can sometimes be the epitome of an All-Purpose Grade A Nerdasaurus Rex:

• Getting amped over seeing the words "Full-text PDF" when researching articles on PsycINFO. Means that the desired article is just one click away, which saves me the runaround looking for bits and pieces of it on Google.
• Trivial Pursuit, and the unabashed enjoyment of it. Adult questions next time!
• Choosing a bed and a laptop instead of blue skies and sunshine. (So far. Might choose to play basketball once my stomach settles down. Would be a good way to blow off some steam!)
• Sticking to Pikachu while playing Smash Brothers, and my weirdly comprehensive knowledge of Pokémon-related issues (shout out to Serebii.net; all the information I know, I attribute to my compulsive checking of that site).
• Bogarting parts of Seth Cohen's personality, and (superficially) viewing him as an aspirational figure, in general.
• My love for being able to explain everyday things in graph, table or chart form. Of note: Indexed; the melding together of rap and maths; The Friend Zone; chart of things to say during sex.
• My penchant for Final Fantasy. Includes: a figure of Ashelia B'nargin Dalmasca, FF songs in my iTunes library and way too many man-hours devoted to researching and studying the games.
• The fact that I end my blog entries (and previously, my comments, e-mails and wall posts) with END COMMUNICATION.
  
• I find LOLcats effing hilarious. Internet memes are dangerously addictive.
  

I'm sure there's a lot more, but my brain is currently unable to remember. Most likely a failure at the retrieval stage of memory; I'm quite certain the encoding process went smoothly.

Oh crap, that reminds me. There's one more for the list:

• Psych nerd, what up! Thank you, three-and-a-half years (so far) of being a Psychology major! Without which, I would never have brought myself to guffaw over this photo like I did the first time I saw it:

Over and out.

- marty..

END COMMUNICATION.

(Naturally).

Contrary to popular belief, loud, pained screaming does not automatically result in catharsis. It can even perpetuate your frustration, or at the very least, it just simply fails to do the job everyone expects it to do. Plus, the fact that no one heard your agonising scream can serve as a painful reminder of your isolation.

Dear Mart,

You brought this on yourself. Deal with it. Screaming for help does no one any good.

Sincerely,
Mart

- marty..

END COMMUNICATION.

And this is when I forget to breathe.

Tuesdays.

Feeling numb, feeling the pressure. Feeling sick to my stomach.

"I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take. When people run in circles, it's a very, very mad world."

What now? You know how much I hate uncertainty.

"Let me know: do I still got time to grow? Things ain't always set in stone. See, I know my destination, but I'm just not there."

We'll figure this out. We have to.

...Right?

- marty..

END COMMUNICATION.

Songs I can't live without

Scabbing this from Maria. Rules are as follows:

Once you have been tagged, you are supposed to write down 25 songs you cannot live without. You know, the ones you can listen to over and over and never get tired of. They don't have to be in any particular order. These are the songs that make you laugh, cry, think of an old friend, whatever the reason.

1. Death Cab for Cutie - Title and Registration
2. Imogen Heap - Goodnight and Go
3. Kanye West - Amazing
4. Kanye West - Love Lockdown
5. MGMT - Kids
6. The Shins - New Slang
7. T.I. - What You Know
8. Lupe Fiasco - I Gotcha
9. Enrique Iglesias - Escape
10. Gilbert O'Sullivan - Alone Again (Naturally)
11. Kanye West - Flashing Lights
12. Lykke Li feat. Drake - Little Bit (Remix)
13. Nas - The World is Yours
14. The Perishers - Trouble Sleeping
    
15. Olivia Broadfield - Don't Cry
16. The Beatles - Eleanor Rigby
17. Jay-Z - D'Evils
18. A Tribe Called Quest - Electric Relaxation
    
19. Kanye West - Welcome to Heartbreak
20. Onyx - Last Dayz
21. T.I. - Hurt
22. Nobuo Uematsu - Silence Before the Storm
23. Yellowcard - Ocean Avenue
24. Ennio Morricone - The Ecstasy of Gold
    
25. Bloc Party - This Modern Love
    

This was harder than I thought. Not because of having to whittle down a 6000+ song library down to the best 25, but actually, it was harder to find 25 songs I couldn't live without! A lot of songs weren't as meaningful as I originally thought they would be, so they were easy to cut out.

- marty..

END COMMUNICATION.

Top o' the morning to ya.

Inexplicable feeling of melancholy. Possibly brought on by being alone at 3:45AM with only an Honours thesis, the dim light from my Scarface lamp and a brain running on two cups of coffee to keep me company.

Taking a break to listen to Porcelain. I think it's hitting the spot. It makes things feel so surreal, like time slows down to a snail's pace. Aural escapism is very much appreciated at this point.

I'm in dire need of human interaction. I fear for my sanity at this point. The madhouse can't be too far off now.

(L).

- marty..

END COMMUNICATION.

Second time around.

Some of the random funny things I remember from the trip:

• The argument about whether the footy was the same ball as the one we brought last year. (It was.)
  
• Quotables from Julian Reyes, all while sounding like he had glass shards stuck in his throat - "Let's play animal alphabat;" "It's pretty clode;" "WAH-AH-AYE!"
• Quotables from Teej - "BOW-RAL;" "Look at the sheeps!" ROFL, sheeps. Dude, everyone knows that the plural of sheep is shoupes!
• Michael Jackson music marathons! We even had MJ impersonators in the car with us!
• Apparently, my new nickname is Irish McMartin.
• Patrick Villareal loves snowboarding. Especially the bruising and soreness. He craves it.
• Patrick Villareal was also the rookie of the trip, so he copped his fair share. "And then the baby cames out! Martin Martin Sex! Thank you for being my friend! BRRRRIPS! ...Blips." Ahh, what a combo! See also, "Cowgirl 360," "Figure 4 Leglock" and "Piledriver."
  
• "GET OUT OF THE WAY!" "LET GO OF THE BAR! DON'T SIT ON IT!"
• Optimus Pride VS Mattatron.
• Only one person can eff up making Easy Mac. Correct?
• Six-hour car rides are for gays! Loves to cramp!
• Daredevil = best superhero movie ever. ...PSYCHE! Flash kick from standing position FTW!
• The only reason I snowboard is to get a chance to knock other people down. I'm an assassin on the slopes!
• "F*ckin' fang it, Timmo/Marto/Matto/Patto! Heeeeaps sick, aye!"
  

Let's do this again next year, guys.


- marty..

END COMMUNICATION.

'Cause I feel like taking off...

=D

You said I'm on a ledge. Come stand with me - I need the company.

So, going by this video clip, I need a baseball bat, a car and a really awesome form of stress-release. Correct?

I'm not obsessed. Just impolite.

Also of relevance: my favourite post so far on Le Love, entitled "like i do with my feelings for you." So, she's turned her back, she's still on the fence AND she's keeping the gates closed.

Final score: Pessimism - 3; Love - 0.

Would also like to acknowledge the return of my cynicism. Welcome back. Wow, I thought I was done with you a while ago. Everything's the same as you left it last. You've been here a lot, so you should know your way around. Make yourself comfortable - mi corazón es su casa.

I'm pretty sure I don't believe in it. It's too misleading. Decepticons, roll out.

Ways to keep yourself occupied so that you avoid slipping into unwanted rumination whilst you're awake until the sun comes up:

• Bury yourself in Uni work.
• Clean a bunch of shoes.
• Write.
  
• And write.
  
• And write.
  
  

- marty..

P.S. If my Spanish was a FAIL, blame the Free Online Translator!

ADDENDUM: Juno Temple = (Y) Martin Lorenzo Pagdanganan likes this.

ADDENDUM PART DEUX: Forgot to mention the return of my bad habits - "20 hours without food" and "one meal per day." Regulation, what up!

END COMMUNICATION.